if you believe I am a compendium of my wants
then one of us has a belief
& the other one will never be an adult
the way the television describes.
the truth is: the world hurts my feelings.
I am bored with the fantasies
we have been allotted.
I am very curious
about the way my organs bump together
but not enough to cut myself open
& this is the problem. everything I see
sinks in water
so it sinks right through me
& then sits at the bottom of me
waiting to be discussed.
everyone says we are all going to die
& I practice believing it. the truth is:
truths are too shiny to look at directly.
we slump our bodies
around the pure fire of them
because we like to feel
all the temperatures at once.
Kelly Schirmann is the author of Activity Book (NAP, 2014) & the co-author of Nature Machine (Poor Claudia, 2013). She sings in the band Young Family & runs BLACK CAKE, a web-based audio-chapbook label. She lives in Portland, Oregon.